I’m happy to report that I was able to shake my sinus headache by 1:00 pm yesterday, and I’m almost pleasant when I don’t feel like there’s not a gremlin attempting to escape from my face at any moment!  Even though I didn’t get home until 7:00, I took Lib to the library, got both little kids bathed, and folded some neglected laundry. I even got some chore lists made for the kids. 

Today’s goal is to declutter for 30 minutes this evening. Tomorrow’s goal is to get to the gym. It’s been over a week. I would make myself go this morning, but the headache is back.  It’s entirely demotivating. I’m congratulating myself for not going back to bed for an extra hour.  My stomach wasn’t too bad yesterday, so I’m just going to be happy about that in spite of how confusing it is.

Work was tedious, as it usually is during our last week in an office.  This is the week when, instead of feeling competent enough to learn a few more tips and shortcuts on the EMR application, the physicians groan about how much productivity they’re losing.  I understand, but it makes me nauseated to hear doctors use words like productivity.  Such is our health care system, that patients are treated as widgets. I contribute to the monster in my small way and scream inside.  This office has been pretty nice to us though. They are smart folks and they’ve been kind enough to not shoot the messenger, for the most part.  I just get tired of feeling like some war criminal come to ruin lives.  I’m just the software trainer.  I’m not a compliance officer, health insurance adjuster, salesperson, or administrator. After two years at this job, I’m still amazed at how life altering it is for some folks to enter information digitally rather than scribble on a piece of paper. My motivation is improved patient care and outcomes, and I know it will come with time.  I enjoy change, but I seem to be in the minority.

Advertisement